Sorrow's own pace

New York?

Sun, 09 Mar 2008 11:05:24 GMT

I am so updating on my cell. My fingers will be so freaking pained. Anyway onto the update. like anyone reads this anyway. So since I got Fucked by Fye I am not off to college. Eh whatever. I will find other things to do. Like once i gets a job i am going to visit friends in different states. Dru in Cali, Nathan and Tim in Ohio, My Texas Friends Of Course, un Faith in Alabama, and Andrew in New York. Im looking to ny because i gets to go to china town and tour it with my friend. also ohio because of Nate teaching me to drive a tractor woot um guess thats all for now

Sun, 30 Dec 2007 04:16:46 GMT

Finally got my computer back.
Christmas was great.
Went to see Sweeny Todd.
MArvelous movie.
Johnny depp..always hot.
Fye is closing
Jan 22
need to find a new job.
Watched HOOK today.
I fucking love that movie.
Eh,thats all....

Wed, 19 Dec 2007 02:13:50 GMT

well my computer died

so im my moms

anyone wanna chill or whatnot

gimme a call or something

miss yall

JEss

Thu, 15 Nov 2007 06:34:16 GMT

What is it that attracts men to the freaking screen..it is a game not real life.

but then i suppose whatever draws them in is the same that draws us into anime or reading or writing...

at least reading doesnt turn you into a mindless zombie

^x^ maybe it does..sometimes

bah ok well reading is more educational than games...yesh thats it

MOVING ON.

turkey day....yay.

one week...yay

((totally lieing here))

just another lame family gathering that doesnt need to happen. iwould rather stay at my apartment watching BLEACH!

but..for some reason i go. i dk maybe it is for the free food lol

or maybe i get a kick out of seeing their lives falling apart whilst mine is slowly building more and more as the time passes. their little attempts at saving their marriages ....destroyed with every swig he takes of ale..or how they compare me to Barbies first reincarnation....

cheerleader,...college kid...successful

heh i never was.

:;sighs:: oh well ....time to dash

jess

Tue, 13 Nov 2007 06:56:52 GMT

What You Really Think Of Your Friends

Ryan is your soulmate.

You truly love Jenn.

You consider Gin your true friend.

You know that Yoruichi is always thinking of you.

You'll remember Ryan for the rest of your life.

You secretly think Yoruichi is creative, charming, and a bit too dramatic at times.

You secretly think that Gin is colorful, impulsive, and a total risk taker.

You secretly think that Dru is loyal and trustworthy to you. And that Dru changes lovers faster than underwear.

You secretly think Allie is shy and nonconfrontational. And that Allie has a hidden internet romance.

What Do You Think of Your Friends?

MElodies

Tue, 13 Nov 2007 06:35:13 GMT

there is a picture of jesus

and hes looking at me

im scared.

anyways....

so the move is still far off...a lil excited. i cant wait. new hampshire is so much prettier than this shit hole.

and the people smell better lol

leaving with:
helio
ipod
finance
a bestie(You know who u are)

and a new and better me!

whooooo

to mah bestie!!! you are reading this yes?

I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so glad we met!
you truly changed me for the better

MUAH

night all
Jess

ps sorry kayla i had to work today...eepp lets pick another day

Getting ready

Fri, 02 Nov 2007 21:00:48 GMT

going out to eat

then get ready for krislynns halloween partay!!!!

>.< imma fall out of my dress i can already see it happening...

so if ur going....bring a camera

if not the pics will be on my myspace

lol crazyness.

P.s Kayla wen u wanna hang?

love
Jess

night owl

Tue, 16 Oct 2007 07:32:41 GMT

it is fucking 331am

where is everyone

lets partay

lol alright stay asleep then

monkeys!!

gah i need sleep

0.0

JEss

blah to work

Mon, 15 Oct 2007 00:50:50 GMT

I disslike work,.

but who doesnt

neway i am gonna try to get a job in wrentham outlets..

ooo maybe work at the gap//fuck that id rather die.

hehehe ^-^

but seriousy i think ill try some stores up there.

jess

beh

Thu, 11 Oct 2007 05:21:39 GMT

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

saw 4 is in like ? someodd days. lol cant wait. i is excited.

::does excited dance::

but anywho. so i gotz mah costume for halloween and yall gona laugh.

its ELVIRA! hah. i definetly gots the breasts for it

>.<

im so silly.

so i am getting all prepared for mah move.

its in like seven months. and i cannot wait.

im getting the HELL OUTTA DODGE! <<,wtf does that mean anyways???

cya

JEss

ALSO!!

Tue, 09 Oct 2007 03:13:18 GMT

more breaking news~~~~~~~

MAH HAIR IS BROWN>>>>> WELL HALF BROWN NE WAY AND IT WILL STAY THT WAY

><><><><><><>< for now

^-~

halloween is coming....

Tue, 09 Oct 2007 03:10:47 GMT

OK so...this year on halloween i am:

weekend of halloween~~~going to haunted hill

day before halloween~~~~~~~~going to salem.mass

day of halloween~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~CANDAY!!!!!

so it looks fun huh!! well who wants to come with. i have room for like 2 or 3 more people......seriously anyone wanna come i am all for it!

ttyl,

JEss

Six months and counting....

Mon, 08 Oct 2007 05:54:17 GMT

GET SET! GO!

so yeah i have six months before the BIG move of 2008!!

thats right. i am moving to new hampshire in june 2008. im going to Chester college for writing i will attend it for four years!! woot

i will also be accompanied by my boyfriend/fiance. whatever you call em!
and if we like it enough we may live there permanet.
my job situation is fixed.

transfer to fye in derry,NH which is 11 minutes from the skool.
ryan will transfer to a stop and shop around there. it'll be kool.

so we will live in either DErry or Salem new hampshire. havent fully decided on which one as of yet!!

but i cant wait to leave woonsocket.
not that i will be missed.

well thats my breaking news for now!!

ttyl,
Jess

btw...

Sun, 07 Oct 2007 03:36:58 GMT

ha..so everyone is either at college or is going

great for you all. best of luck.

i spend all my time writing mah book and working....

BUT!!! maybe mah book will be done soon.

i hopes.

missing things.....

Sun, 07 Oct 2007 03:35:26 GMT

Okay so i have been thinking lately that there are alot of things that i miss. I know i shouldnt live in the past. what the fuck eva!! anyway...its been plaguing my mind and here is what i got so far:

1.I miss concerts with friends.

2.Sleepovers

3. Sneaking alcohol from parents

4.staying out late and not caring

5. trips to the mall for no fucking reason

6. beacon

7. being "funiture"

8. going to christmas bazaars at a church and finding a ouija board

9.EmCing a variety show

10. My friends

11. My friends believing in me

12. my old room

13. my dogs

14.people calling me

15. taking thee RIPTA

16. lenny

17. thinking i am a bad ass..lol

18. those who are reading this..you are the ones that i miss with all my heart!!

dont get me wrong. I am extremely happy with where i am in life..i just miss certain things and people. although i will never tell them that. and they will probably never read this. Because i am hated by them.

O.O

But it's all the truth and...to someone special

"The Ghost Of You"

I never said I'd lie and wait forever
If I died, we'd be together
I can't always just forget her
But she could try

At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I? Should I?
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever ever...
Ever...

Get the feeling that you're never
All alone and I remember now
At the top of my lungs in my arms she dies
She dies

At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I? Should I?
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I? Should I?
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna catch me

If I fall
If I fall (down)

At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are
Never coming home
Never coming home
Never coming home
Never coming home
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I? Should I?
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna...

((anywho message me people and ill give ya meh new teleyphone numba

<3 Jess

....

Mon, 04 Dec 2006 01:34:09 GMT

Lets try an update.

i live with ryan
i still work at fye
i quit cvs bc people ther sucked.
my family hates me
they think i am and idiot for moving.
im not rich anymore.
and.. i couldnt be happier!
i have everything i need.
and im gonna start writing again

love peace and chicken grease

buisness

Sat, 30 Sep 2006 01:59:50 GMT

well i guess no one keeps their mouth shut ne more. yes i dropped outta ric. and i love it. i have a new job and i make 11 dollars an hour. plus 50 extra cents an hour for working third shift. i still work at strawberries too and i am moving out in two weeks. i also got an invite to have another audition for amda and i am contemplating going. and i even want to apply to film skool for next year. ryan and i are still awesome. and i enjoy it..... plus i get to sleep next to him every night... and i am gonna get a tatoo soon. things are great! i am so happy.

peace
Jessicles

inside

Tue, 08 Aug 2006 16:54:31 GMT

okay, now it is time for an update.
saturday night my mom fiinally allowed me to sleep over ryan's house. like she actually gave me permission. and i was so excited. my life was getting better and i was finally treated like an adult. there was only one problem. no one told my father. so the next morning i got home and i was with ryan. my dad asked where i was and i told him and then went upstairs to change for work. ryan left and i got in my father's truck to go to work. he started yelling at me about how i am irresponsible and he doesnt want me to wind up pregnant. he says im not ready. FUCK THAT> no one is ever ready to be. things just happen. im not saying it wouldnt thrill me and it wouldnt mess up my plans. but no amount of preparation can ever prepare anyone for having a kid. but anyway, he said as long as i am living under his roof i cannot do the following:
*sleep at ryan's
*stay out late
*get a piercing
*get a tatoo
*go anywhere i want

that is so much bullshit. im finally gonna be old enough to do what i want and now i cant because i have to live here for free, so i have to do as they tell me. i swear i wanna slit their throats....

as for the whole friend problem i dont know what to do. i mean that friend has been one of my best friends for a while. but everytime i think about what they did i cry. i ball my eyes out. he took away innocence. away a dream. they took away a chance to be with someone you love. and no one can ever get that back. i juss wanna hurt them. but i cant and i feel so helpless bc its not my buisness and at the same time it is. because they hurt you. alot

and as for my whole ryan thing. things are wonderful. and he spoiles me. buys me food when im hungry and drinks and cds and movies.... and he's gonna help with my car insurance. i cant help thinking its too good to be true... *sigh* silly me

College

Wed, 26 Jul 2006 17:12:42 GMT

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!

~~I GOT INTO RHODE ISLAND COLLEGE!!!!!!! HURRAH FOR ME. I AM SO EXCITED I'VE BEEN CALLING LIKE EVERYONE. YIPPIE!!! IM NOT A LOSER ANYMORE. IM GOING TO COLLEGE!!!!!!!!~~ wHOOOOHOOOO

the sickness

Mon, 24 Jul 2006 16:24:23 GMT

so yesterday i was sick. i had a fever and no one was home they all left. so i watched star wars a new hope and then ryan came over and took care of me because i was so weak. then we playd star wars trivia pursuit. i won of course. ive only seen each film a billon times. but he tried so hard. lol. ne way..... i miss shmegs!!! call me damnit'

lessons to be found

Thu, 20 Jul 2006 16:30:20 GMT

ahhh. so tuesday was the big three month! ryan bought me breakfast and a bouquet of lillies and one red rose. we hung out at home and then went to his house and he made me dinner. he got a new job making like 70 dollars a day. awesome. i love my job it is so much fun. and i love the people i work with.

AleXx- my dad says i have to wait for the insurance bill to come in before i can use my car. and i dont know if it'll be before warped tour or not.... pffft im sorry to have gotten ur hopes up. if its all the same my dad got my hopes up too. false impressions...

no

Sun, 16 Jul 2006 14:39:11 GMT

::thinks:: nah i cant tell you!! its too silly

another night another fight

Mon, 10 Jul 2006 15:33:22 GMT

so i went for a walk last night with ryan. just around for the f of it. My dad calls me. guess what he's drunk. hes talking about how im a loser and ryan is a bum. saying how we will never make it in life. that we will fail. about how ryan cant support me. fyi-- ryan hasnt moved out yet. which we will do in a month.--- anyways... so he said he was going to drag ryan in the woods beat him and strangle him to death. WTF!! and guess what his reason is.... its because i love ryan. thats why my dad wants to kill him. u can imagine how much i feel like shit. so ryan went home and i went upstairs. dad came home yelled at me and came close to hitting me. but my mom protected me... how about that... ne way they were fighting he was fighting with me. i got slapped and he tried to strangle me... i guess my mom was in the other room trying to calm down. im just lucky he was too drunk. i seriously could not breathe. and he kept threating to kill ryan. so he left and i tried calling ryan and couldnt get a hold of him. i fell asleep with the frog ryan bought me.

at 9 this morning my dad came in my room and apologized. he said he was going to get help and going to aa meetings...
then ryan called me and told me that he was standing outside of my house all night. listening to us yell. and i cant see him for a month bc im afraid if i do my dad might hurt him :/
1 month till i am 18!!! and i can barely wait...

today

Thu, 29 Jun 2006 23:01:26 GMT

I miss everyone. alex, kayla, paquin, o'brien.... all you guys and we havent even been apart that long. sad face..... call me yo sometime we hang and bust a cap???? ahahahhahaha no clue

hahahahaha

Wed, 28 Jun 2006 23:19:57 GMT

have no job!!! do ded doddodod dododododod o well@!!!!!! it is ok i guess no car for jessicles... annnnnnnnnd i cant see ryan till next friday HURRAY my life blows. me parents said he cant come over ne more till my mom gets home from work and he has no ride at that time. and they are going away for 5 days//////////// so no ryan!!!!! :(